Short and sweet…

Short and sweet …one, two and three.

My grandmother from the Dominican Republic, Ocoa always said in spanish ” Mejor sola que mala encompan~ada.” Sorry I couldn’t figure out how to make the n in en com pa nada a spanish n to make the nia sound. Anyways the saying in english would go as followed; Better off alone than with bad company. Obviously referring to a man in your life. Or woman because I’ve seen some good guys with horrible girlfriends or wifes sad to say. Never the less here we are today in a world and society that trades the new in for the old so fast not working through problems together. It is so easy to run to social media now a days and bash one another and show off. Enough with the rambling, the point for tonight technically this early morning as it is 1:14a.m. to be exact. Is THE LORD WORKS WONDERS. Really sometimes it’s hard to find the good in the little things maybe others would look over. Prime example a gorgeous, sweet, feisty, beautiful and young mother of the dearest most amazing little girl friend of mine passed away (tragically, murdered let me add in a disarray of events) a year after the father of my three SONs died. And her daughters father Vinny went to grade school with me so we go way back. A little background to know the history to set the tone for the example. We had a conversation Vinny and I about the celebration of life for British. He was upset about the Old leather jacket and green dress she wore in the casket were her body laid. Deep breath because this is hard for me to work through grief… And pissed off because why wasn’t she dressed in the best of the best  brand new sparkling clean fresh fit because one thing about Mr. Hughes is he will make it happen by any means necessary. He yelled “I bought those clothes for her years ago!”  pissed the fuck off, at that moment I had to stop him because wait a minute let’s take the good  in the little thing here. One he bought the clothes, two he loved her like no other and three what better to be laid to rest than to be close to the one you loved forevermore. She was blessed to be dressed in the clothes he bought her because they were special to her. Since she still had them years after he bought them for her obviously she was quite fond of the items since she still had them around? Right? I try and find the good in the bad as much as I can. Also I would like to share a quick experience I had. Because how easy is it to talk about other peoples hurt when maybe you yourself have something hurting you. Hurting the world a sensitive topic abortion. If the option wasn’t there would it be so readily available? To kill a part of yourself… This amazing being growing inside of a woman in the Holy scriptures it says,

Psalm 139:13-18 New International Version (NIV)

13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts,[a] God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand—
when I awake, I am still with you.

 

 

So, I recently found out I am 7 weeks pregnant. Here again unmarried having yet another baby out-of-wedlock this one makes 5 children for me. The shame, disappointment, financially out right in poverty for sure. Single mother yet brave to keep the child even though I know I am looked at as a disgrace to some people in society. Because as a Christian I believe God will provide and make a way. His plans are greater than ever could I imagine. And how easy would it be to take a pill and let the shame flush down the toilet or run off bloody into my panties a tiny being a miracle God’s creation if I just let it be and grow inside of me. The choices shouldn’t have to be that of a choice heartache devastation. And yes as a christian I should not have sex before marriage true and kudos to those lucky enough to have been blessed with better choices better life. If it was up to me I would’ve been married at 17 years old and had all of Timothy’s babies lived on a farm with chickens and ducks and went fishing all the time. Yet God knew my life already before I made the bed where I lay in like it or not. I love my life at times and hate it wish I was dead in heaven listening to Tupac sitting next to Mary Magdalene breaking bread with Jesus. What can I say hello I’m sure God didn’t send Jesus down here for nothing duh he knew sinners like us. ME. Need the extra help along the way not saying go ahead sinning God forgives us yet we live in our flesh. Flesh is sinful gotta fight it till the day I die. Repent pray is all I have left to say about that one. A little twisted I know still working on it. I’ve only been baptized for less than two years and was thrown out of the church I attended due to some pompous, judgemental white people. Not literally but I felt like they did. The holy ghost works in my life I would not have made it thus far if it wasn’t for a special specific reason. Okay looking back on some of the things I wrote just now a little blaming others anger and resentment co out sure, take it how you want to take it I will still always be Keila. This short and sweet is dragging out. But I’m having fun and hope whomever is reading this is touched in some way or another. We all fall short and a sin is a sin. God will be the judge of it all. Story short I went to the clinic on the West side down the street from my little casita. I sat alone in the clinic room as the midwife entered in with an elderly student I was fine with her tagging along the midwife. So, I went to a midwife because I thought I would be safer for my “unwanted” pregnancy “they” call it for a check up. First visit should be exciting full of love. NO not for me and this is how it went down….Midwife enters the room with her side kick looks at me sees I’m not jumping for joy no father next to me supporting me holding my hand kissing my cheek. Finger bare hat on bad hair day painting the picture here… asks me some brief questions small talk about asthma how we ALL need air to breath, then explains to me she’s seen my situation before informs me that ABORTION is the number one leading procedure among woman in America and hands me a list A FULL PAGE of where I can go to “take care of my problem”????!!!!!!! WTF am I swore she said earlier that we ALL need air to BREATH and LIVE but here’s a list of places to go it’s still early enough to take the pill ABORTION pill without them having to suck the life out of me LITERALLY. Come on now a sin is a sin I get it I slept with him once unprotected now here I am with child. But to cover a sin on top of a sin tho shall not kill. Enough is enough the pain I bare. Then here comes Jesus to save the day because only God knows what I can handle as I walk out of the valley of death peering down on me I
walk into the light as I see my dominican family an aunt and uncle of mine waiting to be seen in the lobby of the clinic, and it was my birthday they wished me happy birthday because my mother let me breath and across seas back in the day they had tens of kids running around playing it’s cool to have kids. They welcomed the news of my fifth child as a rewarding blessing warm smiles hugs and laughter. Una mujer fuerte con responsabilidades. Ugh sTMI yet it is the truth. Plus look at the real title here changing the mess into greatness. Somebody has to talk about the bad, ugly and the GOOD. That’s all folks. Till next time… Be great and the best you can be. For me I’mma keep shining …this little light of mine I’m gonna let it shine. Jesus take the wheel…

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Change of Heart…

At times when everything feels fine, but yet there is a problem ahead of you. It’s okay to say NO.

When No means No. It’s okay to go with your first gut feeling. Open up your eyes and Pray about it. Things happen and when they do there are options. When shit hits the fan and there is no way out or maybe you feel like your in a jam or there is no coming back from something you’ve done did. Throw your hands up and give it to God. Day by day we all make mistakes. That is why tomorrow is a new day full of God’s grace. I do not have a lot of time on my hands to explain everything I’ve been going through however, I threw some insight out there for the young girls growing up in today’s world. 2018 Lets keep making this world great!

A hand full, is right.

As the neighborhood sleeps and all should be quiet. The heart of the city roars! From the sound of the gentle breeze to the moonlight sky giving light.

 

 

Genesis 1:12 KJV

12 And the earth brought forth grass, and herb yielding seed after his kind, and the tree yielding fruit, whose seed was itself, after his kind: and God saw that it was good.

 

It’s not to often I’ve ran across good cops. A hand full  in my lifetime proven to do what is right and just for the people. Yesterday  finally I met a woman cop helpful, kind and gentle. She was patient and understanding giving the circumstances.  Unlike the quick to judge, trying to hard to make a point power-hungry monsters I’ve cane across or heard of. Finally sad to say I was happy she had my back. To protect and serve the people.
The community to keep safe. I am grateful for the honest hard-working people who have crossed my path. A miracle one might say for me to give the Five Oe’s propes. And short but sweet now a days thankful I didn’t get shot, beat up, mace, threatened for my life’s sake. And with that I’ll pass and keep coming back.

Enough is enough. Good night and may God bless America. Duces peace out.

 

 

Cry..,TLC

When you feel like your at your wits ends. You hold your head up and stay STRONG. Is the only way to be. Free. Deep breath, exhale you will be okay. After a long day you have to tell yourself it’s going to be just fine. Not promised tomorrow but you are here today.

God will never give you nothing you can’t handle. It is the truth. And the word is the truth in how you live it. So… let’s go! Let’s get IT! Drip check a bag. We all in it together. Finally, I landed the job. Can we believe dreams come true. Keep at it you got this. I feel a little sick like I have to throw up. How takes care of the mother when she’s down and out? Look in the mirror baby gurl. We in it to win it! Maybe some of you are lost and confused but for my audience I think for the most part if you can follow along it will be okay. Some might get the point others might lose. Either way at least I was able to get my feet wet and share this part of me with you.

How are you doing today? I hope great after reading this you can take a break and chill. Lol my mother Once said “Take a chill pill.” I love her. Joy Marie. Where would we be without her? Maybe lost in a forest or down a corn field. Some things I won’t kiss and tell. Let it out. /Cry It will be okay by the morning time. PRAY. Get up go to work make sure the kids got to school safe and get picked up. Take a shower tomorrow is a new day.

God Bless you all and G’night.

Stay safe in the heart of the city. Jesus is Alive and here to stay. Peace Out

 

Entrapment past tense…

Hi everyone! Welcome back and thank you for checking in. Been a long day.

I’m here to stay please continue to follow my blog. Currently sitting in a lobby downtown Saint Paul waiting to speak with a hearing officer. Crazy how time can fly. Yet the best thing to do is keep pushing on through. There will be many trails and tribulations a being will experience in this life time. At least we have each other to lean on. I know from personal experience how lonely it can get even when you are in a room full of people. Maybe you have a little or a lot of support. Whatever it may be I believe in Jesus. Patience’s they say is a virtue and waiting to see if that comes true for me today. Lord only knows I need all the help and support I can get right now.

Marble walls green, black and teal floors sprinkled with white specks. Everyone has a job to do. What is right is right and what is wrong is wrong. However it goes there seems not to be a very clear way to be. Black and white yet shades of grey horses eat hay and I’m thinking about having another baby. Only time will tell. And to whomever is reading this hopefully not my mother today as I know she would probably have fell right out of her chair is she could’ve heard my thoughts about having another baby. As a single mom it is tough. I get by day to day only by God’s grace. So back to what I’m trying to get at. The title Entrapment… And how the saying goes everyone has a job to do. A nice lady in a pink and black scrubs sits next to me. Flustered by the speeding ticket she got which she explains is impossible unless she was driving on two wheels three block away from third street stopped at 5th turning the corner at a red light on her way to work. Cops have to make their quota but get this. Story she told me about her guy and how the 12 O’s set him up at a cross walk off University Ave. close by Aldi’s grocery store. I’m up next in line I might not get to finish my story. Yet it was bullshit as she told me how they were posted up two working together trying to write tickets can up with a game plan.  One cop watching as the other stood against the building not even in the crosswalk yet. Then had the nerve to pull people over after they went past. Bogus if you ask me. Feeling rushed to tell the whole story. An alarm just sounded off. Sitting tight waiting on my name to be called next. Till next time. Hope you got the point everyone has a job to do. Right or wrong is in the eye of the beholder. Stay prayed up and God bless.

Felix Aka El Gato…

Hello World! Is anybody out there? Laughing, giggle giggle play the fiddle. Twiddle diddle, still trying to sort everything out.

One, two, three, four who is knocking at my door? It’s Jesus YES! And we take a deep breath. Yes!

I can’t believe it ya’ll please let me tell you about my day. I’m being brave now because I am slightly scared of my past. It’s like it always creeps back up and tries to get you even when you’ve moved on and let the past be in the past. Like go away now and don’t ever look back. Ha, ha, haaaa. It’s like a chapter in the Holy Bible I once heard about as a little girl. The story of  Sodom and Gomorrah. You will have to google it and look it up for yourself. But what I do remember from the scriptures is that the city was full of EVIL like it is today sad to say. However, you have to find the good in life. It’s in the little things we do each day. And it is going to be okay. At least that’s what I keep telling myself from day-to-day. I’m not getting any younger either. So, let me take a step back and really take the time to say I love each and every one of you reading this because life is short and we don’t know what tomorrow may bring us. My ears are ringing right now somebody is probably talking about me good or bad. I don’t want to have the last laugh I just want to live my life and make sure my kids are safe and be right. God is good. He’s got my back on that note let’s proceed. Because this shit is crazy and it’s about to hit the fan.

Listen to this we are all the same. You cut your skin most times out of ten you are going to bleed RED blood. Okay. Let’s get to the point here cause I’m getting tired but somebody really needs to hear about this because it ain’t right. This is open to the public so let it be said here keep it right keep it tight. Be scared to get snitched out living right we will just say we read about this one in a book one day. Sucks when you accident tell on yourself. Here it is….

This morning I woke up twice in one day. The second time I opened up my eyes I was thankful to be home sweet home the first time I woke up seemed like I was digging myself out of hell. I speed off early bird catches the worm. Sleep in late you might miss your date. So fucked up in this world that we live in. By the way this is copy rights to Keila Marie Pujols Sorensen. Steal it if you want to always be mine because it came from the heart. The truth is the truth..

I met this lady in the morning she was pregnant and had a 7 year old daughter. Beautiful hands down. She needed a ride to her first check in. As kids we used to play this game like cops and robbers but it was called La Migra you would run from IT. Like tag nobody wants to be it. Stay prayed up. Only way to be. We walked in they searched us like okay everyone needs to be safe. I get it. Appointment is at 9am we are early. Not sure what I got myself into yet. I hear the clerk behind the glass say she’s accompanied by a RYDER assuming that’s me. Whatever, I ride for mine anyways. But I know they work hard and don’t sell drugs so I’m for the cause. If it were me I would’ve wanted somebody like me to help me out too if I were in that predicament. Long story short once we entered in an Asian guy speaking spanish to us. Explaining the situation ends up snatching the womans passport! Like what the fudge cake just took place here. Come on man. Smh. Where do they even do that at???!!! In plain day light took her passport. Would you want somebody to take your PERSONAL belongings? Like really, Really, really?! I felt like we had just got robbed. And sad part about it is it wasn’t even my stuff. Luckily I was already born in America. But damn that was a little much. They said she would get it back after  immigration court 3-6 months from now. Pray for us. We all need it. Good night God bless. There has to be a better way. Keeping our fingers crossed. I felt some type a way.

Big shout out to my favorite girl cousins Alegria, Ternura, Nemesis, Neosissy, Maria, Kaysie, Austria, T-baby can’t stand you Lexii and Moriah. And everyone else I did not mention love you too. None of this couldn’t have happened without my Mother Joy.  Taught me well. xoxo oh and let me not forget my Big sister Karisa while i’m at it. Thankful for the best of the best Aunt Kim and Shelley.

Working Together…

First off, I would like to give all the praise and glory to God our father who art in heaven hollow be thy name. I know it’s been a while. Today I am thankful for God sending his only begotten son to die on the cross for our sins.

It is very important we work together to make this world a better place. Everyone can do their part a little at a time. Even, if it’s the last thing we do. And secondly, I would like to tell everyone a story about a few things that have been going on and my opinion on some of the things happening in this thing we call life. So, … First things first I miss my God Mother Staci G., I haven’t been in close contact with her lately. Some times it’s best we distance our self from people good or bad. Not saying I have from her more like she did from me. Confessing on another note I made some bad choices a while ago, leading me down a different path. Luckily, I survived and it’s still not over. But we all make mistakes and it’s the ones we can look back at and learn from. Not to do them again and if we do repent, repent, repent. Dust yourself of and try again. Which reminds me back to my story. I made a new friend. Baby girl she is beautiful check that bag and keep it moving. We all hustle or at least try just some of us are better at it then others. By hustle let me clarify  because it could mean many things. From kool aid/ lemonade stands to working two or three jobs. I am currently babysitting and doing her laundry. She did slightly pay me and in the past she has helped me with my laundry. The title to this blog is where I got it from and it steamed from. Shout out to my fam bam Vela too. She’s over here helping me organize my house. As we go through different seasons in life. For example spring cleaning. Going from winter in Minnesota to Spring we skipped this year and jumped right into summer. Getting the kids clothes packed away for the end of the year donating, throwing things away or putting them away for another day. I just got back from Michigan. Pretty state. Nice houses not exactly where I would want to live. Anyways, I guess I kinda skipped my story. Too tired its past 1 a.m. I better get my rest.

It’s a new day tomorrow full of Gods grace. Keep on shining y’all! Be safe peace out.